made my decision to study in sg for 1 year..
feel excited that i can hav more time to spend wif my besties..=)
look forward to the new schul life n orientation..
hope everything can be PERFECT..
^^
am going to stay in sg since having classes every morning..
soooo exciting n worrying..
exciting cos is going to experience a totally new life in sg by MY OWN...XD
worrying cos i'm not sure will i take good care of myself without my MUM besides me..
hmm..
hope i could...^^crossing my fingers..


a question in L&S class..
what will you do when you go abroad???????
hahahaha..
do sumthing that i CANT do in my country..
one of my classmates answer it..
haha..
ya..is true...do sumthing that i cant do in malaysia...
hehehehe..
start planning huh..
sam pat larr...XD



wish me good luck huh..
find a good place to stay before my orientation..^^
cheap and good!!!!haha..
hope so!!!!XD

hard to choose..
confirmation letters from NAFA n Michigan State Uni..
US??SG??
which will be the BEST choice for me?

feel the warmth..
warmth..warmth..
warmth..warmth..^^




feel the warmth...=)

moody..moody..
girls' problem...=(
i think so..
hmm..
am i suppose to stay in sg?
shul starts in July..
what should i do?
moody..moody..
crossing my fingers..
cant wait to receive letter of comfirmation..


one of my best friends--cai xin..
hope she's doing well in her study..
gotta tell her..
mistakes are always the best teacher..
dun be afraid of making mistakes..
just ignore those who teased at your group..
let them be..
as a teacher, should encourage your student, nt teasing them..am i right??
what for we learn??if we dont make any mistake???
what for we need a teacher??
teacher is to TEACH not TEASE..

shut your mouth up!!!!son of bitch!!!
好女人，养活男人胃口..
坏女人，吊足男人胃口..
mlm...
arghhhhhhhhhh....
remember what you wrote todae..
try to think by yourself!!!
you aren't better!!!idiot..
M.F..
brainless asshole!!!



让我骂了那么多不好的东西。。
我知道我不该跟你一般见识，但是。。
我真的很想骂你！！

audition todae..
hahaha..
quite well..i think..
gd luck to myself..
thx god..
for giving a best teacher..^^
study in sg actually not a bad choice..
train myself to be more independent..
hav more wif my babes..
hope everything will ok..

feel proud of myself todae..
cos i'm the youngest singer among them..
i promise i will work REALLY hard to be the best...
if i gt the chance to study in NAFA..^^

rain!!!!!finally..
hahahahaha..woohoo...
love it!!!!
muackzzzzz....
hmm..
overslept todae..
bt there's no big deal..

bt sumone said sumthing that rili makes me feel upset this morning..
SHE said that i'm just TIDAK APA..my attitude..
hey..i'm nt tidak apa ok?
maybe i'm forgetful,havent grown up,always get things mess up..
bt i'm nt tidak apa abt my things ok?
i 've done all applications by myself..
ok?
so DO NOT say it again...
i will try my best to let things be done well..organise things well..
i promise..
ok?
well..
found out sumthing todae..
my speaking is tatally sucks!!!!
speaking class todae..
topic is..
"choose a celebrity,and pretend u're he/she.."
say sumthing abt your life,scandals,ambition,things u hav done..
uhmmm..
my mind just blanked..think of nothing..
hahaha..
bt at the end,i've chosen Robert Pattinson..haha..
below was my speak..stupid..
"hi,everyone..i'm robert pattinson..(show the photo of kristen steward),and this is my girlfriend..
i'm an artist,i'm filming my latest movie"eclipse"..
lot of young girls think that i'm hot,handsome..(laughing at myself)
i dont bathe myself all the time bacause i want to get rid of papparazzi..(laughing at myself again).."
and i blah blah blah blah blah..ended the speak..
wow...
what a sucks speak..totally nonsense and bullshit..
hahaahaha..

bt after thinking to myself..
that's why didnt do well in IELTS speaking..
cos i'm sooooooooo nervous..
and cant organise things well..

arrrrggghhh...
it's gonna be an obstacle to my audition..
i cant speak well..and express my feeling in words...
butterflies in my tummy...
T_T..
wish me good luck...
wuwuwuwuwuwuwuwu...T_T..

bloody hell..
bloody shit..
bloody holy shit..
sorry for all these bloodies..hahaXD..
what exactly BLOODY means???

uhmm..
pretty good mood todae..
bt the weather sucks!!!
shit like hell..
i hate sunny day..
makes me fell sleepy..
makes me sweat..
turn on air-con and fan..bt super hot still..
arghhhhh...
rain please!!!!!!XD

wish all the best in my audition to NAFA...
n wish me find my MR.RIGHT..
Muahahahahaha...XD

gonna practise my songs later..
whooooo...
it's ald been a looooooong time,i didnt sit for exam...
man..
it's really quite nervous xia..
hahaha..


OO ya..
cai xin..
i sing aaaaaaarrr  eeeeeeekkkkk...like vitas to you when we meet..
hahahaha...
i'll show my TRUE power..
hahahahahahahahaha...


USA or SGP??

moody...moody...
what a moody day..
something ruined my PRETTY mood..
woke up super duper duper early todae..
7:15a.m...
cos cai xin WARNED me dont be late..
so i was soooooooooooooooo guai...
i woke up exactly 7:15a.m..
we went out at 8:20a.m...
few minutes walking..
few minutes MRT..
abt 10 minutes waiting for the bus..
abt 20 minutes sitting in the bus..
abt 10 minutes of walking again..
FINALLY...
we arrived at cai xin's school..----SIM..
i waited her at the library for abt 1and a half hour..i think..
surfing the net..
facebook-ing..
checking mails..

arr..i even sneaked into their class..and had a math lesson with their lecturer..XD
Wow..it was so fun..
bt the lesson was bloody boring for me...
listened to music throughout the lesson..

I met him...
he said HI to me..
n i was just like "HI..hmm..hmm.."..
i couldnt look into his eyes directly..
i just cant..

i wanted to take a look of him soooooooooo much...
finally we had a short conversation before me n cai xin get into kelvin's car..
actually is conversation between cai xin n des..
me n him..nthg to talk abt..just smiling to each other..
the feeling was soooooo different from our first met..
i wish i could stay there for a while longer..
bt i cant..

heard something that REALLY ruined my mood on the way bck to JB..
quite angry when i first heard it..
thn keep on thinking...think n think n think..
how silly am i...
how idiot am i..
i mean nothing to him..


bt feeling quite sad when i heard that he's going to study in US soon..


pin..mayb you're right..
mayb i dont mind he ald has a girlfriend..
mayb i really dont mind..just for few months..
bloody hell!!!!!SHIT!!!!!!!!!!
am i crazy????
it's all MAYBE...
I like him at this moment..maybe it would be different the nxt moment..
who knows??


arrrrr....
i'm f**king crazy now..
i hav to admit that I like him soooooooooooooo much..
even more than i thought...

I really hate myself when i like someone that i not suppose to..
it's really really really suffer...
n ppl will hate me..
third party??
what era is this????

what i suppose to do???
tell me please...

haizzz...sighing...
bad news or gd news??
wat do u think??
is that gd for me to study in singapore first?
before i further my study to USA..
quite annoying...this question..
haizz..
bt i'm sure..
i hav to study in singapore (NAFA)for 1 year..
mm..this may be a good chance for me to train myself..
bt feel frustrated and upset though..
cos i've put a lot of afford in it..

hmm..bt there's something that i'm happy with..
i've admitted by college of music..
the professor told me that i'm a young lady with lot of fine qualities..
n i gt a good voice..
ya..this makes me feel better..
but unfortunately..the uni doesnt admit directly after SPM..
that means..i hav to study in malaysia or singapore 's college for at least one year..
hmm..
i think is quite fine for me..
my mum doesnt want me to go so far away from her..
i can learn to be independent..
bt i gonna waste my one year time..


feel like i've let my parents down..
wasting their time..
their blood and sweat..

how i'm going to face them??
i know that's not my fault, but ..

surprisingly, i didnt cry..
when i received that email..
i think i've grown up..



everything's gonna be fine..

bad news...
bad news..
i might hav to study in singapore..
T_T...

listening class todae..
quite nice..
cos finally learnt sumthing..
Oh ya..
we got a new student todae..
a korean boy..
hahaha..nice to meet him..
i cant tell he's korean at first sight..
i even spoke chinese to him ..
thn he's like HUH??what are you saying??
hahaha..thn i asked him ARE you korean??
he noded his head..
i just like arhh...hahaha..thn started to speak english with him..

OK..bck to our topic..
listening class todae..
me n that korean boy(min,i think this is how his name spelled)
ok..me n min same group..
the topic is "how's relationship between boys and girls in your culture.."
this is the topic..i think..

was a quite difficult discussion..
hahaha..cos i hav to guess what he's trying to say..
though i'm not rili good in english..
i think i'm better he is..
hahaha..
he said he's so nervous todae..
i tell him to calm down n speak slowly..
finally..
he's getting better..

i just found out how they think of us(malaysian girl)..
man..he asked me whether malaysian girls LOVE MONEY or not..
do we hav MONEY FACE????huh??
waoooo..i was shocked that moment..
thn i asked him why does he think that way??
he said he heard from SOMEONE..
wtf!!!!that SOMEONE be careful huh..
insulting women...

quite interesting though...
different culture different opinion..
some of them think women shlud stay at home..
some of them dont care whether women or men support the family..
some of them think that they shuld pay for women when they hang out wif them..
i was shocked when min told me that divorce is normal in korea..
divorce..
if u want to divorce what's the point u get married??

learnt some interesting phrase todae..
you'll never find a girl that willing to shine your shoes and pick up after you..
ya..
totally agree..hey~~~women and men are equal now ok???
summore..
dont be too judgemental when u meet someone for the first time..
DONT judge a book by its cover..
tat's true..
most of us think that first impression is important..
ya..true..but can u tell personality of someone by first sight??
no rite??

haizz..one BABI spoiled my pretty mood todae..
dont wish to talk abt that again..
i love study...hahahaha...
dont think that i'm crazy or what..
just bcos after graduated from OMEGA i didnt rili study hard..or read a book..
hahaha..so it's a chance for me to study hard now..
enjoy being an adult..
i like the atmosphere in class..
rili..cant wait till tomoro..haha..
ACT like a good student..
saying ''good day ,mate!!!'' to my classmates..
hahaha..
feel good huh??


tat's all for todae..^^


Good day, mate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahahahaha...

feeling quite good todae...
nice weather..nice mood..

woke up at 11:30a.m...
cos kakak nid to clean my room..
11: ++a.m. is super early for me!!!!but i hav to wake up...no choice..
brush my teeth..wash my face..
no appetite todae...feel like vomit...
n my mum bought redang chicken summore..swt...
i didnt eat much ...but my mum eat all up..
after she finished, she scolded me..cos i always make her eat all the food n cause her put on weight..
hahaha..
halo~~tat's not my fault ok??
who ask you to buy lot of food when i dont feel wanna eat??
after BREAKFAST, had a cup of milo...
I LOVE MILO...hahaha..
other ppl addicted to coffee..for me i addicted to MILO...
I cant live without milo...
i gonna sing a song 2 my DEAREST milo...muahahaha..
how do i live without you?!!!!!!
hahahaha..
after a cup of milo,read newspaper...
after reading newspaper,took a shower..
hahahaa..i've chosen a T-shirt n a shorts that make me look fresh...
no BLACK N WHITE todae..
cos i usally wear BLACK n WHITE..
n mostly in white..
such a weirdo huh??
haha..
a tiring day ...
I took a nap while waiting for my mum to drive to ELS..
can u imagine hw tire am i???
time's almost there..my mum finally MOVES her body from those ANGbao 堆...
see??ang bao is more important than me!!!hahahaha...
reading class todae...
meanigless class..no point at all..
learnt sumthing that i ald know..
skim through the passage..pick up the important point..
OMG...spend few thousand ringgit to listen to these kind of bullshit??
haizz...
how stupid am i...
better spend these money to attend german learning class..
MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!who willing to teach me german????!!!!
i rili nid it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
german...makes me think abt US...
university...gosh..drives me crazy...
received an email telling me that the university DID NOT receive my spm result that i've sent it last year...
if you were me,will u get frustrated???
dream always look nice..like bubbles..
POPS POPS!!!disappear...
please..please..dont let my dream becomes bubbles...i'm begging you...


the proudest thing i've done today is i go home by myself...
muahahaha..by bus leh...geng rite??
i even cross the BUSY road that without traffic light by myself..
i feel proud of myself..haha..cos i dont really know how to cross a road that has no traffic light..
i noe..is childish..nvm..being childish for sometime is good though..


told myself today..
being a 19year-old girl must think like 19..
being an adult must think like an adult..

must know what is more important than personal matter..
eventhough i rili miss him..
but i gt more important thing to do..
harsh realities of life make us grow..
we hav to keep moving forward..
NO turning back..

适当的掩饰，是必要的...
当一个人长大了，不可能可以像小孩一样，有什么说什么...
把自己的心情写在脸上...
别人只会把你当成没大脑的笨蛋...
所以这个时候我们学会了掩饰...

但是，时间久了，掩饰可能逐渐变做作...
而做作也逐渐变虚伪...
忘了自己最初的样子...

现实就是残酷的...
逼得你必须伪装自己...
才能保护自己...



haizzz..feel so blue todae..
rainy day..
feel like roll myself in BIG blanket..n having a cup of hot chocolate..
hmm..
sounds nice..




5th of April 2010

still a LOOOOOONNNG way to go..

in a really bad mood todae..
when will i complete what has to be done..
is really a tough task..
my future is in my own hand..
my dream..
please..dont let me make any mistake..
a little mistake is enough to destroy my dream..
i dont hav much time to waste..
so please..
keep me away from those traps..


control myself..
concentrate on what is important..
please..
it makes me wanna cry..
but i didnt..
take a deep breathe...
everything will be alright..
加油！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！
college stuffy..visa thingy..
everything's fine..


All The Best To Myself..